Dear weightloss, Hello it's me again

Well, here I am again having fell off the weightloss wagon, AGAIN! Don't get me wrong I lost some weight got lazy, and gained it right back. I joined a gym with a friend back in September and we were all gun ho about working out and dieting. I was going to be her motivator, and vice versa but after the initial month we both fell off and then the holidays came. So the little bit of progress I made went down the drain. So having cursed myself out for not having will power I rejoined the gym (by myself) and have been doing pretty good at working out. But, my problems are as follows 1) Eating too much of the wrong foods and not enough of the right ones 2) Too much sugar 3)Eating late at night, in bed 4) Waiting too long to eat 5)Buffets 6) Setting unrealistic goals(i.e. 30 lbs in a month). I used to watch The Biggest Loser and I convinced myself that if those people could lose all that weight in such a short time then so could I. Well, if I worked out six hours a day and ate lettuce, carrots and celery all day I probably could, but that's not me so I don't watch that show any more because it's just too unrealistic. Truth be told, losing weight is hard. Denying yourself things that are good to you but bad for you is hard. Changing the way you've eaten your whole life is hard. But anything worth having takes hard work and dedication. I am so determined to go from 285 pounds size 22/24 clothes to a size healthier that I have to do what it takes to get there,one pound at a time. I know I have to change so many of my bad habits and it's going to take time,but, I'm in it for the long haul.

Hello, My name is April and I'm a junk food junkie..................

I've been trying to start this blog for months but I always get sidetracked but now I'm finally ready. I'm finally tired of being trapped inside the body that I'm sporting. A little about me:  I've always been a little thicker than most. In my group of friends I was always the heavier friend,the friend with the larger than life personality,the jokester always making the others laugh. But to be truthful I wanted them to laugh with me and not at me so the jokes are/were to distract people from the fat. I can't say that I've tried every diet imaginable because I haven't.I 'm a bit of a skeptic when it comes to some things and diets that promise quick weight loss are at the top of the list. And I'm not good at following rigid diet plans, it's just not in me. I did lose weight two years ago when I went vegetarian but that wasn't why I stopped eating meat(it was a definite bonus though).When I got pregnant with my son I was craving meat so bad (steak in particular) I fell off the wagon, HARD!!!! I haven't stopped yet and that was over a year ago. Which brings me to where I am now fat, out of shape and disgusted with myself. I know I can lose weight ,I've done it before and will do it again.I know there are plenty of other blogs about losing weight and I read most of them but this one is really just to hold myself accountable.I will post pictures of myself that show me at my worst and hopefully at my best. I will post my weight because I am too embarrassed to say it to another person out loud. I will probably be hard on myself because I am my own worst critic. I want to lose weight but more than anything I want to gain a healthier sexier me.
My Stats: Weight:289
                Waist: 47in
                Chest: 47in
                Arms: 17in
                Thighs:28in